I Shall Love Him

"If anybody’s looking for love in all the wrong places
If you’ve been searching for love, come to Me, come to Me
Take up your cross, deny yourself
Forget your father’s house and run, run with Me
You were made for abandonment, wholeheartedness
You were made for someone greater, someone bigger, so follow Me
And You’ll come alive when you learn to die" ~ Misty Edwards "Arms Wide Open".

That song has really pierced my heart. I've been feeling really discouraged about love and relationships lately. As most people know, I'm not big on commitment. I've been in 3 different relationships within the past year alone. I love the IDEA of commitment. The idea of "soul mates", of being in love with 1 person for the rest of your life. I'm such a romantic at heart. However, I'm the queen of getting into relationships, and the queen of getting out of them. When the excitement of a relationship wears off, and the going begins to get rough, I bail out and find a new relationship so I can feel that excitement again. Do I ever ask the opinion of my main man Jesus about this? Of course not. I just go. I bail. I go to seek happiness elsewhere.

AH..but that's the problem. My happiness cannot be found in another human being..only within JESUS!!! Though I KNOW this, I still fail to apply it to my life. Jesus even tells us, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." (Matt.6:33). 

So the lyrics I posted at the beginning, greatly apply to myself. The piercing I felt is called conviction. I've been looking for love in the all the wrong places. If I really want to see and experience love, I just need to look at the cross. I know once I completely get "right" with Jesus, I'll be able to commit myself to the Christ-like man that God has for me.

Commitment to Jesus is first. Commitment to others will follow.